- Objective Day .

Don’t speak unless spoken to, Don’t have an opinion, Don’t research anything

October 31^st, 2011

Morning (Drive in):

It turned into more of a “reflective period” for Emma to virtually talk to herself unless I was addressed. It was different than a normal drive in because it turned into more of a monologue than a dialogue with the absence of singing or extreme laughing. I didn’t find myself eager to talk though; it was just different than I’m used to.

Bio (P1)

Bio was not difficult in the slightest. I rather wrote down my answers instead of answering his questions aloud. Socializing isn’t a huge part of bio, so I wasn’t longing to talk at all. The biggest challenge was knowing the answer and not being able to say it when no one else in the class knew it, so it resulted in a “you guys should know this” lecture from Mr. Hertz. Even though that got frustrating after the 2^nd or 3^rd time, it was better to know than not know it. I found myself often laughing to myself, which made me seem insane I’m guessing.

Theatre (P2)

It got frustrating because no one was staying on task or keeping anyone on task, so I found myself making plans on my own and showing them to people. Only 4 of the 6 people contributed to it, and it was extremely frustrating to have to sit there while no work was getting done, so in return, I formatted all the blocking necessary.

Lunch (Improv)

For improve at lunch, my objective was put on hold while the improv team itself was working. As soon as it ended, I went back to the silent, unresearched life.

Social (P3)

Social was possibly the hardest of all the classes, strictly from the opinion aspect. Many questions that Gillespie had asked I was the only one that knew the answer and it was frustrating to sit there and need to listen to him lecture us on how uneducated our generation can be.  In social I found myself able to be increasingly observant to more than just the general discussion, but rather people’s body language concerning certain ideas. Taking more of an outside view on the discussions today allowed for viewing from a different perspective.  There were many things that throughout the course of the class I had wanted to look up or research, though it didn’t bother me as much once I realized I had to hold back.

Chemistry (P4)

Chemistry, much like most of the other classes wasn’t a big hindrance. Mrs. Walsh was awfully confused when she would expect me to talk and id sit there silent, or id raise my hand instead of just flat out asking, it was almost funny to watch her respond to the change in my habits. The social aspect of it was a bit more difficult just because the classroom setup is to be sitting at a table with 4 of my friends. By that point, Hayley had made it clear that you had to address me in order to have me speak, so most of them understood quite quickly. Not surprisingly, it was easier to focus knowing that I was unable to talk.

Overall:

One of the main reasons I think I talk so much is to avoid thinking to myself.  I seemed to be a lot more aware of my pain when I was being more observant rather than participatory. A big aspect of the idea of the objective for a day is to increase self-awareness, in which i found the objective to be quite appropriate. Rather than coasting through the day as a matter of habit, i found myself being attentive of my surroundings and current situation and adjusting accordingly. This was effective in relation to the directors concept, because it set a clear picture of how a character must compose them self according to their current objective, even if it makes sense to defy it for some reason or another. Applying the directors concept to our everyday lives was beneficial overall.