Don’t speak unless spoken to, Don’t have an opinion, Don’t research
anything
October 31st,
2011
Morning (Drive in):
It turned into more of a “reflective period” for Emma to
virtually talk to herself unless I was addressed. It was different than a
normal drive in because it turned into more of a monologue than a dialogue with
the absence of singing or extreme laughing. I didn’t find myself eager to talk though;
it was just different than I’m used to.
Bio (P1)
Bio was not difficult in the slightest. I rather wrote down
my answers instead of answering his questions aloud. Socializing isn’t a huge
part of bio, so I wasn’t longing to talk at all. The biggest challenge was
knowing the answer and not being able to say it when no one else in the class
knew it, so it resulted in a “you guys should know this” lecture from Mr.
Hertz. Even though that got frustrating after the 2nd or 3rd
time, it was better to know than not know it. I found myself often laughing to
myself, which made me seem insane I’m guessing.
Theatre (P2)
It got frustrating because no one was staying on task or
keeping anyone on task, so I found myself making plans on my own and showing
them to people. Only 4 of the 6 people contributed to it, and it was extremely
frustrating to have to sit there while no work was getting done, so in return,
I formatted all the blocking necessary.
Lunch (Improv)
For improve at lunch, my objective was put on hold while the
improv team itself was working. As soon as it ended, I went back to the silent,
unresearched life.
Social (P3)
Social was possibly the hardest of all the classes, strictly
from the opinion aspect. Many questions that Gillespie had asked I was the only
one that knew the answer and it was frustrating to sit there and need to listen
to him lecture us on how uneducated our generation can be. In social I found myself able to be
increasingly observant to more than just the general discussion, but rather people’s
body language concerning certain ideas. Taking more of an outside view on the
discussions today allowed for viewing from a different perspective. There were many things that throughout the
course of the class I had wanted to look up or research, though it didn’t
bother me as much once I realized I had to hold back.
Chemistry (P4)
Chemistry, much like most of the other classes wasn’t a big hindrance.
Mrs. Walsh was awfully confused when she would expect me to talk and id sit
there silent, or id raise my hand instead of just flat out asking, it was
almost funny to watch her respond to the change in my habits. The social aspect
of it was a bit more difficult just because the classroom setup is to be
sitting at a table with 4 of my friends. By that point, Hayley had made it
clear that you had to address me in order to have me speak, so most of them
understood quite quickly. Not surprisingly, it was easier to focus knowing that
I was unable to talk.
Overall:
One of the main reasons I think I talk so much is to avoid
thinking to myself. I seemed to be a lot
more aware of my pain when I was being more observant rather than
participatory. A big aspect of the idea of the objective for a day is to
increase self-awareness, in which i found the objective to be quite appropriate. Rather than coasting through the day as a matter of habit, i found myself being attentive of my surroundings and current situation and adjusting accordingly. This was effective in relation to the directors concept, because it set a clear picture of how a character must compose them self according to their current objective, even if it makes sense to defy it for some reason or another. Applying the directors concept to our everyday lives was beneficial overall.